It's nearly Christmas and I am part ready, part not, part excited to see family, and part really tired. This, apparently is a constant theme in my life and from what I can gather from those around me and what I read in the blogosphere, in many other people's lives too. (Of course, my exhaustion is unique and special to me and all should recognize it as such.)
Another constant theme in my life is work. I am slightly befuddled about that. Is work the major thing that defines who I am? I never thought it was, but it seems to be the only thing I do. I have become so consumed with work, that even when I am not very productive, or do non-work things, I relate everything back to my work and it marks or colors my activities. If I am not actually doing something related to my project, I think I should, or it is a period of time which interrupts my work. Not sure if this is good or bad; it just is.
So, we are about to enter real celebration of Christmas and then New Years and we will "go away" as we often do for the holidays. A physical distance will divide me and work, but will it be a real separation? Can it be, what with all the big scary deadlines? My academic self never really shuts off, but am I productive?
Who knows the answer to that, but I do know there is a stack of mystery novels collecting dust since last Christmas and I will read some of them!
Another constant theme in my life is work. I am slightly befuddled about that. Is work the major thing that defines who I am? I never thought it was, but it seems to be the only thing I do. I have become so consumed with work, that even when I am not very productive, or do non-work things, I relate everything back to my work and it marks or colors my activities. If I am not actually doing something related to my project, I think I should, or it is a period of time which interrupts my work. Not sure if this is good or bad; it just is.
So, we are about to enter real celebration of Christmas and then New Years and we will "go away" as we often do for the holidays. A physical distance will divide me and work, but will it be a real separation? Can it be, what with all the big scary deadlines? My academic self never really shuts off, but am I productive?
Who knows the answer to that, but I do know there is a stack of mystery novels collecting dust since last Christmas and I will read some of them!
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