Oh Really?

I said in the last post, that was, well, a while ago, that I was not ready to throw in the towel. Well, I am not, but I have also been super busy. And repeatedly quashed by work. I thought the end was near--the end of the project--and I would soon act like a normal person, whatever that means. But, no, not over yet, and it is tricky as to the resolution and if we will all be happy.

So, this is what has been happening:

I have been working a lot, most every day and sleeping very little. All this culminated in a meeting which did not go well. Hence the quashing.

And most recently, I have spent the last few days recovering from a bad work experience. Day 1, sloth--wallowed in the badness of it. Day 2, found things to occupy myself other than work. Day 3, attempted to reorient myself back to the serious work at hand. This seems to be the pattern with my work of late. I go from an intense amount of work to reach a goal, and a meeting, and then there is the fallout which includes falling away from productivity.

The result--no growth as a person and very little attention to my soul this Lenten season. Lent has actually flown by and only once did I good and eat meat on a Friday. Today we participated in the reenactment of the crucifixion our Lord--did my best to exclaim "Crucify Him" on cue--and I guess Easter is next week.

After saying more than once in my life, this time it will be different, how do you truly make things different when you are quashed by work, over tired, and let's not forget how uninspiring weekly Mass has been of late? More to think about I guess.